Confession: Love and Taylor Swift.
When I was younger, I’m not really a huge fan of music. I just listen to music whenever I feel like to. To sing when I want to, or dance.. if you could actually call it dancing. Haha. I listen to songs I could relate to, though I don’t completely turn to it when I feel something. Yeng Constantino has been my favorite singer eversince I was thirteen years old. That time, I love her...
Pain makes people change.
“If you would go back to the past.. what certain part of your life would you like to relive, and WHY?” Isn’t it one of the most common questions we usually hear? In contests, in pageants, in any truth-or-dare games, etc. And last night, I was staring through my window, looking through the night sky like as if it’s the most interesting and fascinating thing to me; then, this question...
Last night, while looking at the stars..
Me: *points at a star, far away from others* I’m like that star.. alone and waiting for someone to- Carmelle (my sister): “Nope.. You just outshined them all.” ♥.
Tell me.. is that just what you do?
So my friends tell you this.. and my friends tell you that. But it’s not about what they say. They don’t control my feelings. And yes, they may have known a part of what I feel, like how I fell so hard for you and how I coped with all of these, but they won’t understand the intensity of pain that I went through because of you. I’ve been dying to know if I actually mean...
YOU KNOW WHEN YOUR HEART IS TOO SOFT BECAUSE, YOU...
..THEN ALL OF THE SUDDEN, YOU WILL FIND OUT THAT SOMEONE’S TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THAT. SOMEONE IS TAKING ADVANTAGE OF HOW YOU FEEL; AND NO MATTER WHAT I DO, THAT’S ALL I COULD THINK OF. IT MAKES ME WANNA CRY SO BAD. SOOOOOOO BAAAAAAAAD!!! :’( </3. I DON’T KNOW IF LOVING SOMEONE HAS BEEN WRONG THE WHOLE TIME. and I FREAKING HATE IT (AND EVERY SINGLE PIECE ATTACHED TO IT),...
Meet the girl with the long black hair.
(As a response to her post entitled, “Meet Chastine.”) :D Meet Mari Flor Ruvishella. “Ella” for short. Actually, hindi ko na maalala ang exact reason kung paano kami naging close (pero alam kong tandang tanda niya pa. haha). At alam ko na nagsimula siya once upon a time.. 4 years ago. :) Fourth year highschool kami nun and since new classmates every year sa Saint Bridget...
January 24, 2012: Welcome to what my heart feels...
I’m not feeling okay. Again. Screw that, right? And I can’t even run into my friends’ shoulders to cry and ask for help because I don’t think they would understand. Heck, I don’t even understand this myself. I’m hurt and that is so overrated. People might even think that I am crazy for ever feeling like this AGAIN for the nth time. I’m just really hurt....
January 1, 2012 - 06:35pm blog.
..still halfway through writing all the highlights of my 2011. I’m not even done yet, and right now, I am so stoked about everything I have written so far. :) Memories and feelings I thought I forgot. Wow! :) How are you, guys? Happy new year again! I’m just having a break to rest my tired left-hand for a while.. then I’d be back on writing again later. For now, my kind of rest...
I was screaming, "SPARKS FLY.." ♥.
..because of the pretty fireworks. Aaahh, 2012, HELLO! :) And happy new year to my dearest followers. May you have the best new year, ever. <3. I love each and everyone of you!! Thank you for all the things that you have done for me. Without you, I would have probably stopped using Tumblr, so thank you! :’) I love you! PS: Long live, 2011. You were amazing and wonderful.. and looking...
At the passenger seat on my way home last night..
I heard Taylor Swift’s “Enchanted” play randomly on my shuffled player.. and so, my mind started to have conversations. I decided to have a conversation with myself (hahaha). My thoughts: “Hey, what if you ask for a sign that everytime “Enchanted” would play on shuffle next time, that would automatically mean that something is bound to happen.. something like.....
Just before the year ends, I am planning to go...
- to select all the HIGHLIGHTS of my 2011. The good and the bad. :) I guess this has been a good year.. no matter how much I gained and lost.. no matter how much I have loved and how much I’ve been hurt. I just know that this has been a very good year to me, because I know how much lessons I have learned in life.. and love. Plus, just having that thought of how excited I was when I became...
Every ending is a new beginning..
Late at night -that’s where I do a lot of thinking. Thinking about what happened, what could have happened, and what might happen. I replay mostly everything I could remember in the back of my mind. I think of every details and almost everything you said like as if they happened yesterday. I think about you. And, as always, I can still feel the pain, though they are not as strong as...
As loud as a church bell.
Let me tell you another stories of my own. :) One day, I was able to read this quote from Nicholas Sparks (The Last Song) and it says: “I have faith that God will show you the answer. But you have to understand that sometimes it takes a while to be able to recognize what God wants you to do. That’s how it often is. God’s voice is usually nothing more than a whisper, and you...
My pain is knowing I can't have you.
Last night, I was so busy deleting some messages I don’t need in my email, then I came across this link and I found my blog way back in 2007, at blogspot. Out of all the happy memories that I’ve shared in there, one of the things that really hit me was my blog entry about me, opening up my feelings about love for the very first time. That was October, 2007. The very first time that I...
Taylor Swift is so precious.
I haven’t been updating my Tumblr much this day because I was so busy looking at all the photos from her Speak Now / Help Now concert which was held at Nashville. The stage.. costume.. set list.. everything! It’s was completely different from her Asia tour and if there’s any way I could, I would rully rully (Grant style, haha) love to watch her Speak Now tour at US. Every single...
Funny how I never wanted to talk about love, but here I am -planning to open up my mind and thoughts for it. So what I’m going to write here is pure honesty, and I never wanted to hide anything since I don’t want to deprive myself with something I really feel. I don’t wanna lie to myself. In all honesty, I have my guards up. Everyone gets hurt, eventually, at one point of their...
Once upon a first love.
This is my first time again in a very long time that I shared one of my diary entries I wrote yesterday. Today is a Good Friday, and everything seems so peaceful.. so I thought that maybe this would be a good time for me to write again. So, here I go: _________________________________ Do you ever get that feeling wherein you really want to go back at a specific time of your life to be with that...
I am going to see Taylor Swift at Araneta Coliseum...
- Excited is not even the word. I can’t believe how this is all coming true for me. I used to dream about this. I used to think about how that might feel like being in the crowd, watching Taylor sing, whenever I watch her live performances at Youtube (especially during the 3 nights of Journey to Fearless at Hub); now, I don’t have to wonder anymore ‘cause I’m going to have...